Kicking Butt !

I did so well yesterday. Sailed through the day until around 5pm. Intense nicotine craving . There was a war going on in my head, the nicodemon telling me to light up. Was feeling decidedly foggy and light headed, but I didn't give in.

And then, 7pm half a stella, I'm chatting on the phone and nicodemon comes up on the inside and I automatically reach for one. Three puffs, and I won't say I didn't know I was doing it. I did. Still that was that, can't drink/smoke, can't trust myself.